Dear Dream, What Are You Trying To Say?

If a dream is a message, then what my dream is trying to say? 

These few days, I couldn’t sleep well. I was having a nightmare, and it kept on repeating for the past three days. For sure, I would wake up around 4.00 am, and be extremely alert of my surroundings. I felt exhausted as well. Strangely, I could remember my dream very well.

The dream involves people that I have known from the past and new people that I have just met. It’s very weird, because these people are somehow connected to each other, and the worst part there is violence involved. I could see myself running in my dream, it’s like I was being chased by something or someone, and I would meet these people, to talk and discuss something.

I don’t clearly remember what I discuss with them, but what I do know, it is completely nonsense. It’s just a random conversation. Then, they will kill themselves after talking to me. The worst part again, I was forced to see them kill themselves even when I refused strongly.

I don’t really understand why they must commit suicide. Everytime someone commit suicide, I will cry. It is weird to see myself crying in the dream, and I really look like a lost little girl in the middle of nowhere trying to solve my problem with tears.

Three days ago I woke up with tears on my eyes and said “No!”, I still remember it because I was fully conscious that time. After that I felt dizzy. 

Hopefully everything is okay. Perhaps I need to refresh my mind. :)