Serious Person

I am a very serious person. I don't know when I start being this kind of person but I always know I am a serious kind of person. It's not that I can't joke generally. Being serious, make me sweat the small stuff more than I suppose to and it's because I choose too, but sometimes, I let it go just for the sake of letting go.

I have this kind of special relationship with words being spoken. Because when words are being said, it means you are ready for the consequences it may bring (positive or negative). So that's why I am serious about promises being made.

Because promise shows the seriousness and responsibility. Which is why for people who just simply put their promises out there for the sake of putting it, well it is a minus points in my eyes. Although it won't be that minus, if your actions speaks louder than your empty promises.

Nuff said.

#JustSaying

If there is one thing I am allowed to see from the other person, I will wish to see their mind. It probably feel with disturbing thought if that person likes to think about negative thoughts that affect his/her particular mood.

I have always been curious about a person mind because where your mind goes, you will go. I am also curious of my mind when I keep on repeating the same pattern on and on. Decision making also comes from the mind, which is why the mind is very very important.

 I realize that negative thoughts that caused failures before doing is the ultimate enemy in oneself. And sometimes it is hard to defeat or keep the mind in control because it likes to wander freely especially to the past moments.

Well, it is not wrong to see the past sometimes and feel the nostalgic moment but when it becomes excessive, it is dangerous and deally for a person because the perception is clouded and it will affect the person action when facing out of control circumstances.

Be in control of your own mind. 

New Habit

So I have started to pick this new running habit and it is hard, honestly. It is hard to show up and give it your all, especially when temptation like rain, period, priority and time are demanding for attention.

Even when I have set up schedule, it is still hard to do it. The hard part comes also from my very self. 

I wonder....

You have to have big dreams.

I feel a little scared of those words. Big dreams, I haven't found it. For now, I just want one thing, a peaceful life where my mind and heart is in harmony and content. Honestly, big dreams give me some kind of a burden.

Monopoly

Recently, my brothers and I are quite addicted to this board family game called Monopoly.

We used to play when we were very young where we were scared to death of going to jail in the game. But as for now, things change when we understand better about the game rules and restrictions.

Pemikiran Random Hari Ini.

Kalau ngomongin masa depan, jujur aja saya gak tau arahnya mau kemana.
Ini kenyataan yang gak bisa dihindari dan pastinya harus dihadapi.

As Free As Always....

She went to another place.

Thinking of how to keep her feelings in control.

But why should she control her feelings?

Uncertainty

"Let go the things that are not meant for you, if its meant for you it will come back"

I have difficulty in letting go of some things, this is because I have invested my time on it. So I am reluctant to let go, when some times it is the right thing to do for my own being.

It's Time

An overwhelming feeling engulf me
Every fiber of my being shout to let go
Let go of the uneasy presence

The Gregarious Life

Just a few days I was thinking about the wish I had been making in my heart.
Well, it is coming true now, but for some reason I am not that happy.

Small Decisions

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Life is moving forward no matter what. Time also moves forward. The only thing that stay stagnant is our daily routines of waking up, doing your activities for the whole day, then sleep.

The Forceful Gaze

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I refuse it.

Saying no.

Trying to make my reason enter that person head.

But there is always something disturbing after that, it is the gaze.

The Complaints

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I don't know since when, but I am sure that I have low level energy when it comes to complaints. When people start complaining , I will just listen and don't know why I will feel tired about it. I will feel like I am suffocating and I need to regain my energy.

A Bird

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Sometimes I wish I am a bird. To fly freely in the wide blue sky, embracing the wind and sun in the most intense way. Enjoy the rustling wind brushing my whole body. Witness the world with my very own eyes, witness its beauty and its crudeness.

20 - 22 September 2013 Papandayan Mountain Trip

The me 5 years ago will never expect this to happen, well, yes, how could I expect myself to hike a mountain when I have no preparation at all? No stamina. No idea what does slayer mean(It's a motorbike mask), No idea what food to bring, and so on.

When You Say You Know But Actually You Dont

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Lie or liar

A word that used to describe people being untruthful. A strong word that can hurt someone feeling. 

Sometimes I asked myself, "is it hard to be honest?"

Mother

She is someone that bring you to this world. She suffers intense pain when delivering that tiny baby, and she go through that life and death moment, while praying in her heart that she choose to live and to bring you together with her although she has to endure that pain.

I Still Prefer Bicycle Than Motorbike

It was morning, nearly 8:00 AM. I just arrived home after church together with my brother and mother.

I sat at the front terrace of the house while patting my dogs.

A simple prayer

Dear God,

Thank you for letting me go through today. It's not only today but yesterday and the day before as well, I mean everyday.

The Wallflower

She was there in the corner of the crowd.

She decided not to be the under the spotlight, since it's not something she like.