Towards myself

I have always believed that thoughts and feelings can be control. So when I watched one of Joyce Meyer talks in Youtube about "mind" and discover one of the verse in the bible about controlling thoughts and feelings, I know right away that what I believe is true.

Upon growing up, I had always been a person with low self-esteem. I easily admire people with confidence (until now I still do sometimes) and liked to compare myself to them. I used to hate myself because of the things I can't do yet others can do. And when I remember that now, I know it is part of my growing up process.

I had been a slave of unnecessary thoughts and feelings for a long time like wanting to impress everyone to make myself happy, like letting others negativity influenced me and many more. 

I used to hate how the way people does things that doesn't suit me or make me questioned "why the hell are they doing this? Don't they know this is not good?", but then I know clearly, I can control my thoughts and feelings towards myself about anything and I can choose as well negative or positive.