X-mas with family :)

x-mas is one of my favorite day. :) this is where the day i ll spend fully with my family. :) 

The birth of Jesus :)

One day about 2,000 years ago an angel named Gabriel appeared to a young Jewish woman named Mary. Gabriel told Mary she would have a son, Jesus, who would be the Son of God! Mary was confused and worried about this sudden news, but she had faith in God and said, "I am the Lord's servant; let it be as you say."

It's Okay. I am Fine :)

I am fine. :) Don't worry about me anymore. :) 

You know that I love You and I don't need You to love me again because You have given me those love and I still have it. :) 

They need it more than me. The love that You have given me. :)

I am here for You whenever You need me.

Don't worry about how I feel, as long as You are happy, I am happy.. ^^

why quarrel?

Everybody has different opinion and perspective towards things they see and think. 

I know we all are created differently especially our way of thinking. 

finally its (temporary) over and now its holiday!

Finally, this first semester of my 3rd year is over. :)

all the tough and challenging challenges that i face has passed smoothly. Now its time for holiday which is the only time i really feel freedom and relax. :D 

My exam...

Really can't wait for my exam to over on Friday... I want to end my reading on notes.... 

Conquering Tabur Hill xD

Right after my second day of exam on Saturday (10-12-11), me and this expert guy went for an outing to Tabur Hill on Sunday morning (11-12-11). xD (Do this on exam week and u will feel much more fun :P) hehe

3rd year -> 1st sem exam.

After submitting all the assignments and Investigation report, finally reach this stage again, exam. 
This is the 1st sem exam during my level 3. As usual all the students that will face the exam is busy studying and want to achieve distinction grades.

Nothing Lasts Forever

Baby, I know that sometimes you don't get it 

Why we're always torn apart 

Cin(t)a

Yeah, here it is. A movie haha.. after a long time didn't watch a movie finally i get to watch one which is recommended by one of my friend. It's an Indonesian movie. Well at first i am not interested. But since this movie is related to a relationship with different religion. I kinda curious about this movie. hahaha So decided to watch it :P 

The title of this movie is Cin(t)a. Watch for fun xD

Worth it or not? You ask urself.

When you really care about someone and having a relationship with that special person your mind is partially dead. Half of your mind is controlled by your feelings. 

,.,.,.,.,

headache.. 
feeling demotivated..
feeling not good at all..
no mood to do anything...

hatred... feeling it.. this feeling is so strong..

Alone...

Alone...
Alone...
Alone...
and Alone...

I want that for now.... Just me, myself, and my mind.. 

Everybody Complains...

When having pressure or maybe when you are not feeling in a good mood, what you wanna do is pour out your feelings to someone you can trust. Most of the people do that. 

Acceptance and endurance...

Home is always the best place with family. You know the condition at your home the best. 

Dedicated to Kaname :)

Dear Kaname,,

How are you lately? it's been a long time since we didn't talk much.. 

hopefully you are fine.. I've been busy for this past few months and will be cont busy with my college life.. Hope u dun mind if we dun even get in touch for sometime, but i promise we will get in touch after i settle my thing here. :)

How is your college life? any thing new? have u start teaching? :)
how is ur love life? hehehe... is it still the same or u change again ? :P hehehe

Have a great day always kay :) God Bless You and Your Family ^^

Regards,

Zero

something happening...

i am not there, so i dunno what was really happening.. i dunno what has happened and what was the reason of those things that has happened.. i don't know..

...

why does she have to cry secretly?

why does she have to endure all of the burdens?

how many times has she been hurt..? 

how many times did she said "i am fine" when she is actually not? 

why, why she must endure all of this... 

Perhaps Love

Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home

"The night on that beach"

"The cold breeze on the beach...

I was there on that beach,, walking...

Enjoying the cold breeze and the smell of the sea...

looking at the sky full of stars and full moon...

Untitled

How far can i resist this?

how far can i endure this?

how am i going to overcome this?

Will i give up?

will i let it go? 

Did i reach what am i suppose to reach? 

Have i accomplish it?

Can i ? 

The first surprise during Mid Autumn Festival..

Today is a chinese celebration called mid autumn festival or the moon cake festival. Well this will be my third times celebrating it with families here. :)

I wanna grow old with u....

"I wanna grow old with you, i wanna die lying in your arms

I wanna grow old with you, i wanna be looking in your eyes

I wanna be there for you, sharing in everything you do

Things can come and go i know, but baby i believe

something burning strong between us makes it clear to me" :)

Piggy day

A day has passed and i am doing nothing. just sleeping whole day more than 10 hours.

When i woke up, my whole body didn't want to wake up, only my mind wake up. Oh Boy, feels like wanna conquer dream land more and stay there. 

;)

something that i should do for you...

pushing away someone that really need you and that hurting them indirectly....

trying to make a distance to them in certain thing....

Doing those things because u dun wan to trouble them but it seems they wont understand that actually u r doing this for them.. Its for their own good...

But they dun get it...

They thought differently.....

The place or the scar?

Will you remember a horrific incident when those horrific incident left a wound that has become a scar in you? will you remember it by looking at those scar?

Appreciate the one who loves you. :)

Very touching video. :')

Sometimes we often don't appreciate the people around us that love and care about us.

Should love the people who loves you. Appreciate and thanked them for loving you :) 

hmmm, half girl i guess.. :P

During my chatting with him yesterday, i kinda have some kind of thinking of what a girl really is to him. :P

Girls should wear dress.. Girls should change earrings.. girls should cook... and etc etc etc.. 

I think he wanted that kind of girl so much.. :P haha

Questionsss....

Another minute has passed..


did i spend my time doing the right thing?

hal yang ada di pikiran..

1 minggu lagi untuk menuju ke tahun ke-3 gw di kuliah. Entah knp gw mrasa tahun ke-3 gw bklan brat n lbh bnyk tantangannya.

Gw taw bukan cuma gw aja yang ngerasa begini.

my california king :)

"Just when I felt like giving up on us 

You turned around and gave me one last touch

That made everything feel better

And even then my eyes got wetter

So confused wanna ask you if you love me

But I don't wanna seem so weak

Maybe I've been California dreaming"

Like this song :D 

-^.^-

I feel my time that i had spent with my family kinda pass so fast. 

Going to miss my time with them. 

Kinda feel wanna turn back time. :)

here i am ^^b

Here I am,In this place,Here I am
Here I am ,In this place,I’m here.
Here I am,in this place,Here I am
Here I am,In this place,I’m here now

~~ Spicy time ~~

A few hours after my lunch today... Me and my youngest brother planned to have some  meal during tea time.. since the two of us are being attacked by hunger xD

Testing Patience day

Today was really d day where my patience being tested almost in all the things.

1st: I went to meet up with a few of my friends and some new friends since they said they wanna have some fun together. So i decided to join along. Took a bus to one of the busway station to meet up with them. i have told the bus conductor to stop at that station and end up it stopped quite far away from that station which made me have to walk back to that station. Kinda make me a little bit "angry".

My "past"

Having a conversation with the person that affect you so much in the past and bringing u back to the past memories is a wonderful thing.

Although i don't really remember the whole story but i do remember certain part of the stories that are memorable and worth remembering it. :)

" What are words? "

Like this song :) the lyrics is very meaningful and admire the singer as well ;)

"Anywhere you are, I am near. Anywhere you go, I'll be there 

And I'm gonna be here forever more" ^^

- Nikita -

I have been watching this action-thriller series movie since i went back home. Its totally a worth watching movie. For those who loves action movie, will totally love this movie :D

East Java Trip

This is already the forth day of my trip. hehehehe Kinda interesting trip. 

The interesting part is i get to travel to a small city which is actually has a village look called Trenggalek. Its located in East Java of Indonesia. Kinda a very peaceful place. Very good for relaxing since the weather is consider cold(but not the extreme cold type) and got lots of hills and some mountains as well. hahaha. The food here is cheap and the people is very kind and extremely friendly... hehehe

tears polaris

feeling emo now... ahahahah.. maybe because of listening to too much songs since i can't sleep... hehe


i listened to this song Sonria Pasta - Tears Polaris.

used to be my fav song. :)

P/s : i am hoping that someone can sing me this song :P hehehe

P/s : should sleep now... gotta force my self :)

Another sleepless Night

Dunno why i can't sleep well today. Actually it has been two days i can't really sleep... hmm

is it because of my nap in the afternoon? or is it because i am too excited of going back home tomorrow? or is it i don't feel like sleeping? is it because of my sickness?? etc etc.. millions of thoughts entering my mind.. hmmm.. 

Cameron day

Right after i finished the last paper of exam, me n a few of my friends went to Cameron Highlands. Have been there once, when i was a kid and i dun really remember it. hahaha..

Kinda feel lazy because at the beginning i already know it's going to be a bored and not so nice trip. As i thought, the whole trip is not nice. But anyway what can i do, promise her already that i ll follow,so just go on with the trip.

Life Definition :)

#Postscript

 

"Life can only be understood backward. It must be lived forward.

Life isn’t about keeping score.

It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all.

It isn't about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.

It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.

In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.

Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.

 

Life just isn’t about that.

 

But life is about who you love and who you hurt.

It’s about how you feel about yourself.

It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion.

Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence.

It’s about what you say and what you mean.

It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.

Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.

These choices are what life’s about." Anonymous

P/s: somehow it reminds me of someone :) hehehe

P/s: hey you, if u realize it, just smile okay ;) haha i miss you ^^

no Mood...

exam.. saturday will be the last paper i have and will be the end of my 4th sem. Somehow i feel sooooooooooo lazy... =.=


no mooooood to study at all... haizzz.. 
so sad... my study mode almost dead dy.. my holiday mode is rising... 


why why why laziness always win? zzz... hv been playing games this is bad..  need to study!! but no mood.. haizzz... 

No one is perfect.

there is no human in this world that is perfect. the imperfect here is about weakness.

every human has their own weakness either they realize it or not.

that goes to me as well. i am not perfect. i know that. there are many things that i still need to learn and i do make mistakes sometimes. so don't expect me to be perfect . i have a lot of weakness, so do you...

dun ask someone to be perfect because the truth is none is perfect, even u yourself is not perfect. 
Realize that.

1st suffering ENDS! next ---> WAR

Yeah, done my last assignments and finally submitted it.. xD ahahaha

where am i??

Hv been reading the whole day to get the idea of what those terms means. Yeah i really do get the idea and kinda understand it but now i am lost. My mind is lost. 
Blur.. really blur. 

Missing Mom's Complain :)

After spending sometime with her a few days, somehow i am missing her now :)
I miss her complain ahahaha.. :)) that's d best part. xD

What is your real intention?

In this world, this cruel world, a lot of people is taking advantage on others just to get what they want. This is called selfish. You think about yourself more. Not many people realize that they are being used to get something that others want.

"Just A Kiss"

i really get addicted to this song :) 

Precious Words from "Someone" :D

"Be fair to everyone"

"Do the Things That You Don't Like with Your Fullest Capacity"

"You Should Know More Than You Know"

"Think About Others First, Don't Think About Yourself"

"Don't Be Selfish"

the "pain" spreads

since yesterday night my cold hearted mode has on. i dun care about anything surround me. i dun care bout anything happening surround me. i dun care about anybody.

doubtsss

now my mind is full of thoughts of doubt. I am doubting myself. questioning myself. not having faith in myself. completely lost and dun even understand why i suddenly feel this doubt.

d "may ʎɐɯ may ʎɐɯ may ʎɐɯ may ʎɐɯ may " month.....

˙sʎɐp ʍǝɟ ɐ ʇuǝɹǝɟɟıp ʎןuo ɥʇıʍ sn ɟo ʇuoɹɟ uı ʇɥbıɹ sı uoıssıɯqns ʇuǝɯubıssɐ ǝɔuıs ɥʇuoɯ ןןǝɥ ɐ ɹǝpısuoɔ sı ɥʇuoɯ sıɥʇ


˙ǝɹǝɥʇ sı ןǝǝɟ ǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹnssǝɹd ǝɥʇ ˙ǝʇɐp ǝnp ǝɥʇ ǝɹoɟǝq ʇuǝɯubıssɐ ɹıǝɥʇ ɥsıuıɟ oʇ buıןbbnɹʇs sı ʎpoqʎɹǝʌǝ


¡¡¡uoos puǝ ןןıʍ ɹǝɟɟns & ǝɹnssǝɹd sıɥʇ puɐ ˙uoos ssɐd ןןıʍ ǝɯıʇ ʇɐɥʇ ןǝǝɟ uɐɔ ı ʍoɥǝɯos ʇnq ˙ooʇ ǝɹnssǝɹd ɟo ʇɹos sıɥʇ ǝʌɐɥ ı 'ǝɯ buıpnןɔuı


=˙= ˙˙ɐɥɐɥɐɥɐɥɐ ˙˙ןɐɯɹouqɐ buıɯoɔǝq ˙ǝʌɐɥ ı ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹnssǝɹd ǝɥʇ buıʎoظuǝ ɥʇıʍ xɐןǝɹ ɐpuıʞ ןǝǝɟ ı ʍoɥǝɯos



(؛ ǝɥǝɥǝɥ ¡ɥɔʇɐq ʎɯ ʎןןɐıɔǝdsǝ ǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ ɹoɟ ʞɔnן pnb


(: ǝuıɟ puɐ ןןǝʍ sǝob buıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ ɥʇuoɯ sıɥʇ ǝdoɥ
 (: ɐɥɐɥ ˙˙ǝɹnssǝɹd & ssǝɹʇs p ǝsɐǝןǝɹ oʇ ʎɐʍ poob ɐ ǝq ןןıʍ ʇı buıʎoظuǝ ssǝnb ı ןןǝʍ

hmmm, lonely??

"r u feeling lonely right now?" a ques from one of my fren. kinda make me think what ans to give. =.=

well  Its been a long time since i hv felt lonely. I hv forgot hw does it feel to be lonely.

d ice hearttt

A cold hearted person = 
- doesn't care about other people feelings
- keep everything to yourself
- ignore people
- cruel
- unemotional

 
 

random thoughtssss :P

I want to be alone..

I want to forget alot of things and erase it...

~a gud listener~

When someone is having "heart" problem and u can't help at all then at least become a good listener. Lend them ur ears... 

Not Anymore

This is dedicated to

This, this, this is dedicated to

well,if your are feeling like i'm feeling

Then, this is dedicated to you

Dedicated to.....

To that someone really thanks for today. Its really a great day to spend my time with u.

And the other thing i wanna say is sorry for causing u some trouble. Sorry too for d bad mood. I know sorry wont change anything but i wanna say this because i felt guilty n i hv done something guilty that involve u too. 

............

Being affected by something stupid that completely ruin my mood while i am in a really gud mood for doing my assignment. Now those assignment mood gone. what a gud thing! 

When ll "You" be independent???

Assignments, u r the only thing that make me so so lazy.. I so lazy to complete u.. Why dun u be independent and complete urself? Dun ask my help ok ma?? 

One day At The "Desert" ---> Putrajaya

18 March 2011, me n one of my "friend"(weird guy) went to take a look at a  Hot Air Balloon Event at Putrajaya. 

~~ the past,, the present,, the future ~~ :)

Everything that has happened to me, has a reason behind it... 

the cute cute little box ^^

The question that i always lazy to answer....

Yesterday while waiting for all my mother's cousins to come, i took a very short nap for a while in my room since i was a lil bit exhausted... i took that nap for about 15min coz  one of my cousin woke me up and asked me to hv the family dinner together...

~CNY 2011~

This was d 2nd chinese new year i hv in Malaysia... 

During CNY eve, i helped grandma prepare for d reunion dinner and also for her prayers later. Well she prepare a lot of food.. d steamboat during d dinner was nice.. hahaha :D 

I wished my parents and brothers can enjoy those food.. :)

ksr :(

gw males bngt hri ini ngmpus... seumur2 ini pertama kalinya gw males bngt ngmpus. padahal biasanya gw ga begini...

Bye bye Holiday,, Welcome New Sem!

Monday, my new sem will officially start. To tell the truth i am very lazy and i am still in a holiday mood -.-

But still i gotta go coz i hv no choice. I can feel that my new sem will be tough, tougher than my previous sem. Well i hv to be prepare for that. 

Bad Day - Lost my temper - x(

Few days ago i accidentally hurt someone. I didn't mean it. I really didn't mean it. 

I know i am rough. I know i am a temperamental person. I know that. And because of this attitude of mine, i hurt the feeling of the person that very dear to me, let's call this person X.