i wish i can stop d time now...

Another few more days and i ll be back to my "reality"...

another hour has passed... another minute has passed...

I wish I can stop d time now.... 

Chinese New Year Eve..

As usual celebrating CNY eve in my hometown with my beloved family is different with celebrating in Malaysia. :)
The feel is different. hehe.

Well nothing much here, just have a dinner and prepare some foods for tomorrow. The Chinese new year day. :D

Fruits: Orange

Dodol :)

Bolu cake

Going to add some brownies again. :) hehe

Happy chinese new year everyone :)

Have a great year!

The feeling of losing someone dear to you...

Recently, there are so many people who lose their beloved ones. Someone who is so dear to them. Some of their beloved ones are in the hospital lying down in a coma condition and the chances of saving their life is almost gone from what the doctor said.

A friend of mine keeps on praying for her beloved niece to recover from this incurable cancer disease. I help her pray as well. Wishing the best for her niece. I see her and her family sad and worry. Very worry. 

One of my uncle was being called to God side. My cousins feels the sad and regretful feeling the most and so deep. Feel pity for them. But still i wish them to stay strong. 

Another thing, someone told me that he is scared to visit a friend of his who is coma in the hospital and nearly death. The reason is, he is scared that his coma friend will die when he visit her. Scared, sad and regret.

Start to feel regret of why when she / he is still healthy we didn't appreciate them or love them? Why we didn't talk more to them? All the regretful feeling comes to your heart. 

You start thinking that you should have done this and that...... but your thinking does not change anything now.

Appreciate and cherish your beloved ones and the person you care and love the most before its too late. You never know when they ll leave you or when will God call them.

Unexpected.. very unexpected...

Knowing, that person has done wrong and u have lost ur patient towards them and start scolding them. Every word that come out from ur word can turn something that is already bad become even worst.

Another thing is when u lost ur temper u tend to not think clearly. Ur mind are partially dead. The feeling of anger is controlling u. We forgot that when we scold someone we forget their feeling. They can feel angry, hurt or maybe depressed. we forget the feeling of hurting someone, someone that we love. 

I realize something today that saying sorry whole heartedly maybe its not an easy thing to do. Need encouragement, facts that u have done wrong, letting ur ego down, and controlling ur feeling. Especially the feeling of wanting to shout or angry. This happens right in front of my eyes.

I don't know that, a sincere sorry can be so hard to say. Maybe its because ur heart don't want to do it. But why? u know u have done wrong, u know it so clear. U hurt someone and what u do is to say sorry sincerely from ur heart not simply say and promise u wont hurt them anymore. Isn't that what u should do to someone u love? 

A big ego is not something that u shld have when u have done something wrong. A sincere apology and promise that u wont do it again.. its the thing that u should do. This will show that u r truly a gentleman. Not a coward. Don't be angry because u know that u have done wrong and they want to correct u. Thanked them because they still care for u...

To be honest, I know u are a gentleman :) 

Seven Days :)

Seven days by Craig David.

Used to be my favorite song :)

On my way to see my friends
who lived a couple blocks away from me (owh)
As I walked through the subway
it must have been about quarter past three
In front of me
stood a beautiful honey with a beautiful body
She asked me for the time
I said it'd cost her her name
a six digit number & a date with me tomorrow at nine

Did she decline? No
Didn't she mind? I don't think so
Was it for real? Damn sure
What was the deal? A pretty girl aged 24
So was she keen? She couldn't wait
Cinnamon queen? let me update
What did she say? She said she'd love to
rendezvous
She asked me what we were gonna do
said we'd start with a bottle of moet for two

[Chorus]

Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday

[Verse 2]
Nine was the time
cos I'll be getting mine
and she was looking fine
Smooth talker
she told me
She'd love to unfold me all night long
Ooh I loved the way she kicked it
from the front to back she flipped (back she flipped it, ooh the 
way she
kicked it)
And I oh oh I yeah
hope that she'd care
cos I'm a man who'll always be there

Ooh yeah
I'm not a man to play around baby
Ooh yeah
cos a one night stand isn't really fair
From the first impression girl hmm you don't seem to be like that
Cos there's no need to chat for there'll be plenty for that
From the subway to my home
endless ringing of my phone
When you feeling all alone
all you gotta do
is just call me call me

[Chorus]

Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday

[Bridge]

(Break it down, uh break it down)
Since I met this special lady
ooh yeah
I can't get her of my mind
She's one of a kind
And I ain't about to deny it
It's a special kind thing
with you-oh.......

Brownies Day! xD

Brownies is one of my favorite cake :D :D
My family love to eat it.


So I have decided to make brownies with Mom yesterday but unfortunately, she was very tired yesterday so I change the plan. 
I planned to make it today but seems my brothers can't wait till today, so yesterday we made it together in the middle of the night. xD

Steps to make the brownies ;))

The brownies chocolate xD

The steamed brownies :D

We successfully made the brownies! But still it is not really perfect and also there is a little bit of burn smell and taste in the chocolate. Maybe this is because I melted the chocolate until it burns.. ~>~
But anyway, the taste of the brownies is there so I guess it's still consider good :) hehe


P/s: Having fun making it. :D
P/s: Mom said it was too soft @@

Patience

I know i am an impatient person. This time, i am trying to let my impatient attitude to not control me. So this should be good right, since i am trying to be more patient. 

Sigh, i wish i am more patient. Because when you are patient, you tend to think even more clearly and can control your feeling compare to when you are impatient.

When you are impatient, all that comes into your heart are anger and unstable emotion that makes you want to explode to anyone.

Sigh... =.= I guess i really have to be more patient now. 

Kehidupan yang berbeda...

Setelah menjalani liburan di Indonesia kurang lebih 2 minggu, gw mulai bertanya2 ttng kehidupan gw disini bersama-sama dgn keluarga. Emang sih disini semuanya santai, ga ush bnyk mikir, rutinitas typ hari cma bangun-nonton - makan - ngorbrol -makan lagi - tidur.Cuma itu rutinitas yang ga brubah. Di satu pihak, ada bagian dri otak gw yg memaksa gw untuk melanjutan skripsi gw. Ini emang kesempatan yang bagus buat ngerjain skripsi gw yang half way done. Tapi entah kenapa, gw ga ada motivasi buat ngerjain kalau dirumah and in a holiday mood.

Dirumah gw cma mood ngelakuin hal2 yang biasa gw lakuin, kyk nonton, main, puas2in tidur, spend time with family more dan seterusnya. Emang sih ini bisa dibilang gw menghambur2kan waktu yang gw ada. 

Berbeda dengan kehidupan gw di negri seberang (Malaysia), dimana gw bisa menforcir diri gw (walaupun males) untuk mengerjakan tugas2 yang butuh banyak pikiran dan usaha untuk mencapai target gw. Disini gw ga bisa kek gtu. 

Setelah gw pikir2, kyknya emang gw balik ke rumah gw di Indo memang untuk menenangkan pikiran yang selama 6 bulan kemaren ruwet gara2 banyak tantangan and tuntutan dri kampus untuk belajar lebih. apalagi yang berkaitan ma skripsi.

Hmmm,, gw rasa kehidupan yang kita jalani bakalan berbeda di berbagai tempat. Ini semua tergantung sama sikap kita jga dalam menyikapi tmpt tersebut. 

Yosh, dibawa enjoy aja deh kalo gtu ^^