Feel to much

It's definitely weird to feel tears (cry a little) on my eyes when I was talking with strangers. I had encounter this a few times and today I feel the most weirdest.

It's not that I have "crying" issue or what, nope, nope, I think its because I feel too much. You know those moments when you were too upset or angry that tears started coming out of your eyes and you totally have no control of it, that's right, I have those moments a few times.

It happens today when I was talking with this driver that had come to pick things, well he chatted a bit about some technical problem stuff, and while I was explaining to him about how things work and gave him the solution as well, he still gave this "I am correct no matter what you say" vibe, that seriously making me think more and use another reasoning so that he can accept it (well, he did accept it. though). And after that, I feel tears slowly running down from my eyes, then I realize I was in tears while talking to him.

I know I feel too much I guess because when things had been logically placed and solved by the mind, the heart start to take control because the mind has done its deed, and today the heart went teary.

Tears From Polaris

So recently I rewatched a Taiwanese drama title "Sonria Pasta" that I used to watch around 10 years ago when I was in junior high school. And I still felt the genuine and childish feeling of mine from this drama, it was like I was looking at the 15 years old me.

Rewatching it gives me comfortable feeling and memories that I really miss.

And it's song Tears From Polaris by Nicholas Teo is still worth listening despite the old age. The feels are great!

Meeting Old Friends

On 13th of September, I met two of my very old friends from junior high school. It was a very new experience for me because the time we didn't meet was 10 years already.

New Habit

So I have started to pick this new running habit and it is hard, honestly. It is hard to show up and give it your all, especially when temptation like rain, period, priority and time are demanding for attention.

Even when I have set up schedule, it is still hard to do it. The hard part comes also from my very self. 

About Self Discovery

Yesterday, I finished reading "What I Talk When I Talk About Running" by Haruki Murakami which unexpectedly turned to be one of the best non-fiction books that I read in 2016 and immediately become one of my favorite books.

Embrace The Gaps

A grip too hard
A heart too stubborn
A mind too straightforward

You see yourself worthy

I wonder....

You have to have big dreams.

I feel a little scared of those words. Big dreams, I haven't found it. For now, I just want one thing, a peaceful life where my mind and heart is in harmony and content. Honestly, big dreams give me some kind of a burden.

Quite An Experience.

Some weeks ago, I decided to have this rock climbing session at Tebing Parang, Purwakarta. I decided to try this new challenges. I don't think much of when deciding to join this challenges. I just thought it will be almost the same as hiking where you deal with nature.

Monopoly

Recently, my brothers and I are quite addicted to this board family game called Monopoly.

We used to play when we were very young where we were scared to death of going to jail in the game. But as for now, things change when we understand better about the game rules and restrictions.

It Changes So Fast

Sometimes, a relationship can change so fast just because of small misunderstandings or broken promises.

The Purpose Is Vague

This morning after showering my dogs, a man appear in front of my house. He was calling and asking money for donations. At first I ignored him because I thought it is probably something which is not important.

Advices

About a couple of weeks ago, I had a very random chat with one of my colleagues in the office. We chatted about coffee, work life, experience, and many more. Then I was quite surprise with her reply when I was giving her some advice, "Yes. I definitely agree. You know what, I think all the advice you are giving to me will be tested back to you".

Only Gift You

Dear you, how are you?
I wish you are fine
And of course happy with your life