Tired & Peace

A feeling that you can never avoid. A feeling where your body and mind are in the midst of seeking for energy.When everything being boiled up into one and all you can do is feel the agony. But behind those agony lies peace.

Morning with Poem

The green meadow

The bright sun

The wide blue sky

Thanks for making my day a better one

Another day has passed

And I am still waiting for you

I don't know how we are going to meet

But I know we will meet

If  the universe can grant my wish

I will wish for us to meet

I will wish for us to know each other more

Will you be okay with that?

Life wouldn't be interesting 

When I can wish for whatever I want

I will wait 

And I will wait for you

As We Move Forward, Nobody Will Stay The Same

I used to love the words "friendship" and "best friend". For me they are a declaration of something serious, something that need a commitment of both parties, just like relationship. They were something cool to me.

I remembered when I was in high school, friends always said "we are best friends", of course during that time I didn't really know what does it mean. I only knew it means good friends that will last forever. And it felt good to have someone say it to you.

It's About Moving Forward With The Memories & Lessons

Sometimes, I am wondering what God is trying to tell me through my life? And no matter how hard I seek for the answers, I just couldn't figure it out. It's strange when I think my life is just a boring one, then I experience a fast change that makes me speechless and confuse. And make me stop a while and think "What are all of these God? Why I should feel this?"

20 - 22 September 2013 Papandayan Mountain Trip

The me 5 years ago will never expect this to happen, well, yes, how could I expect myself to hike a mountain when I have no preparation at all? No stamina. No idea what does slayer mean(It's a motorbike mask), No idea what food to bring, and so on.

Being Understanding

Today is considered a hectic day for me on the road, especially on my way back home from work.

I know clearly that Jakarta is a very jam city where motorbikes are more than cars, buildings are more than trees, old busses are more than new one, a two lane car being forced into three lane and so on. There are so many things that is far from "perfect". 

Tears

It's been a while since I last shed a tear. I wonder if I have become such a crybaby. I never realized this side of me. Perhaps, I do realize but I push it away.

Sometimes Thinking Sucks

It's been awhile since I post my last blog post.

Many things has come and gone. Time especially.
I was wondering what am I doing here? Walking stagnantly, trying to think more than I do.
And what do I get by thinking without doing? A false hope.

When You Say You Know But Actually You Dont

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Lie or liar

A word that used to describe people being untruthful. A strong word that can hurt someone feeling. 

Sometimes I asked myself, "is it hard to be honest?"

Mother

She is someone that bring you to this world. She suffers intense pain when delivering that tiny baby, and she go through that life and death moment, while praying in her heart that she choose to live and to bring you together with her although she has to endure that pain.

I Still Prefer Bicycle Than Motorbike

It was morning, nearly 8:00 AM. I just arrived home after church together with my brother and mother.

I sat at the front terrace of the house while patting my dogs.

A Simple Gesture of Love to A little Boy

She put down her book. Stop for a moment to relax her eyes.

Fifteen minutes passed.

It's so quiet.

A simple prayer

Dear God,

Thank you for letting me go through today. It's not only today but yesterday and the day before as well, I mean everyday.

The Wallflower

She was there in the corner of the crowd.

She decided not to be the under the spotlight, since it's not something she like.

Dear The Future Me

Hey, how are you dear future me? I just wish you are doing good and get what you want. You are part of me that lives in another time frame, and I do not think I will meet you. But we can get a long with this letter, okay?

The anger within my heart

It explodes, that anger in my heart.
I am angry to myself but the worst part is I can't control it because I think that someone deserve that anger from me.

The money minded people

It has been almost two weeks I had been working, and I was being introduced to new people with new behavior and personality.
And this is related to money.

On Learning to Love What I do

Well, here is the working life:
Wearing high heels, make up, and a proper formal clothes. Check.
Bringing a notebook. Check
A few product knowledge books to read. Check.

The Work Life is Starting

Getting a job, sure it is a phase of life that every human being need to encounter.

When promise is just a word

KL, the capital of Malaysia. I have been staying in this city for almost more than two weeks. The main reason is to celebrate CNY together with my family here, and this time with my brother.

It had been two months since I left my second home, and of course when you go back to your home, everybody would greet you happily, asking you about your life or commenting on how much you have grown physically.

Farewell my Samsung

Technologies, mobiles, iPad. I am not actually fond to these things. I can live without them since they only caters some of my needs.

My Second Home

Malaysia, Yes, I had been here for almost five days and time passed so fast. I had been struggling with my heart about the decision to come back here, and I made the right decision to come back here before going back to the real reality of life. 

When You Move On From One Friend to Another

Yesterday, I was invited for a movie together with an old friend. It has been a while since we met each other. Due to the final year project which kept most of our time occupied by the research that we were required to do, the two of us had lost contact. So yesterday was our first meeting after a long time.

Being The First Child

I am the first child, the eldest and my parents used to said this, "You are the first so do it."

What Make You Feel Annoyed?

Today evening, I walked my dogs around my housing area. I did this activity almost every evening.

It's normal for me to see those "Kampung" kids cycling and running around the housing area. I am so used to that, until I can no longer feel that the housing area will be a quiet place when the evening comes. 

Being Independent and Telling The Truth

It's not good to judge people by what they say. What they say can be lie but that doesn't mean you should just bluntly accept what a person says. Focus on the reason that person stated. Sometimes the reason is the answer. 

Someday, I will see you again.

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She woke up in the morning with one thought "I am so gonna miss this place and it will always be my home."
For the past three years a lot of things had happened.